the balance of being held

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so, i wrote a song yesterday and decided that i was going to record the entire thing immediately rather than let it just live in my head until it didn't mean anything to me anymore. i did that because i knew that, at least from a lyrical standpoint, this song means a lot to me. in fact, i like this song so much that i might clean up the mix put it on a future album, but that won't stop me from giving away this current mix for free.

i don't know. life is weird, feeling stuff is weird, but i'm really glad that i can write stuff as a result. enjoy the free song and, seriously, thank you for listening.

you came back to a place
where nothing feels the same
now that we both made a mistake
but honey you came back
you came back from everything
we wanted to end

but everything you wanted
you could find in someone else
that isn't quite as lost or broken
as this left me

so actually lets close the door
and i actually will turn the key
and we'll actually start moving on
because actually
you want to be with someone else
someone with stronger hands
to find the balance of being held
without the burden of holding back
and i just want to be myself
around anyone

so no i don't hate you at all
we're all just looking for something to look forward to
the little single moment that stops the earth from turning
a little piece of something that makes this all feel worth it
it goes on and on and on

i look for it in everyone
i look for you in everyone

questions from tumblr

Added on by mitch.

hey, so i just asked tumblr to fill my inbox with any questions that they might have. i like doing stuff like this, it feels so much more engaging than just typing cold responses to anonymous strangers. let me know if you want more stuff like this. but yeah, without further ado here's over a half hour of me answering random questions.

i'm nervous

Added on by mitch.

here's another song that i wrote a while ago ago but never actually showed anyone. i wrote it back in 2014, the recording is probably from sometime in 2015. sorry that i do that so often. i write and record a lot of things, sometimes they just lost and forgotten about in old folders on my computer. anyway, you can have it for free if you want. 

i lie in my bed, with the things i thought that we said
and try to pretend that everything was dead
but you wanted to be in anyone else's life, right?
and i will forget i'm anyone else's type, right?
i'm nervous

and yeah, i've been talking to someone else
i really think it helps this all feel like it's over soon

say goodbye

you said remembering would feel too much like moving back home

Added on by mitch.

here's a short song that i wrote and recorded a long time ago but never actually shared with anyone. i found it on my computer recently and thought that i'd give it away for free. i doubt this thing will show up on any future albums anyway.

a house, a home, a window
you were here before the floorboards broke
in on themselves like black holes
are the promises you keep
just for people that you want

because you can't read any of our old conversations
but i read them so often it's like we still talk

her (as a concept), me (as a house cat)

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some stuff is happening soon. cool stuff, to be exact. stuff involving a label that i'm very excited to work with, and releases that i'm very excited to put out

i have a new EP coming out, it's called did everything feel beautiful when you let go of the idea of being anything at all, and it's about panic and agoraphobia. it's five songs long. well, technically six if you count the bonus track that comes with every album purchased directly from bandcamp or the official shop. it's a very short and cute song on the same subject, but it got cut last minute because i didn't feel that it fit with the rest of the album.  

the song is called her (as a concept), me (as a house cat), and it's about being in a relationship while being too mentally ill to leave the house, and fearing the emotional dependency that comes along with that. you can listen to it below. thank you.

there's a light on in our bedroom so it says, "master, master, come home. come home from a place that i can't even go". and i'm afraid that you are all that i know.