i want to play video games with you forever but for now talking feels like enough.
october 30, 2016 08:38 pm
so, i wrote a song yesterday and decided that i was going to record the entire thing immediately rather than let it just live in my head until it didn't mean anything to me anymore. i did that because i knew that, at least from a lyrical standpoint, this song means a lot to me. in fact, i like this song so much that i might clean up the mix put it on a future album, but that won't stop me from giving away this current mix for free.
i don't know. life is weird, feeling stuff is weird, but i'm really glad that i can write stuff as a result. enjoy the free song and, seriously, thank you for listening.
you came back to a place
where nothing feels the same
now that we both made a mistake
but honey you came back
you came back from everything
we wanted to end
but everything you wanted
you could find in someone else
that isn't quite as lost or broken
as this left me
so actually lets close the door
and i actually will turn the key
and we'll actually start moving on
because actually
you want to be with someone else
someone with stronger hands
to find the balance of being held
without the burden of holding back
and i just want to be myself
around anyone
so no i don't hate you at all
we're all just looking for something to look forward to
the little single moment that stops the earth from turning
a little piece of something that makes this all feel worth it
it goes on and on and on
i look for it in everyone
i look for you in everyone
august 21, 2016 04:28 pm
hey, so i just asked tumblr to fill my inbox with any questions that they might have. i like doing stuff like this, it feels so much more engaging than just typing cold responses to anonymous strangers. let me know if you want more stuff like this. but yeah, without further ado here's over a half hour of me answering random questions.
august 10, 2016 07:24 pm
here's another song that i wrote a while ago ago but never actually showed anyone. i wrote it back in 2014, the recording is probably from sometime in 2015. sorry that i do that so often. i write and record a lot of things, sometimes they just lost and forgotten about in old folders on my computer. anyway, you can have it for free if you want.
i lie in my bed, with the things i thought that we said
and try to pretend that everything was dead
but you wanted to be in anyone else's life, right?
and i will forget i'm anyone else's type, right?
i'm nervous
and yeah, i've been talking to someone else
i really think it helps this all feel like it's over soon
say goodbye
august 06, 2016 05:22 pm
"help!", his mind yelled. "it's coming back again!". he clenched his fist until it became as tight as the muscles in his stomach, digging each of his nails deep into the softest part of his palm. this isn't the first time that he felt this way and it certainly wouldn't be the last.
but, isn't that the point? isn't that why you're here? to let go of something? to let go of the concept that you are further away from something than you would like to be? letting go can be difficult but, i promise, it starts with loosening your fist.
what a beautiful body, creating chemicals from nothing in an attempt to protect you. what a perfect mind, doing exactly as it should.
it took you so long to appreciate the subtle way that it grew. if only it came as naturally as falling in love with the feeling of it being destroyed.